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Eating
Eating and food has actually been the most difficult thing through all of this. Whenever I start to take a bite of something, ANYTHING - it’s like this very visceral sense and feeling, and emotions come flooding back to me. I’ve never really experienced anything like this before. I can’t eat more than a few bites before starting to cry or tear up. I guess I am grieving? The most important thing for me to get rid of in our (now my) apartment was all of the food we shared. Weird, huh? Sleeping here is okay, all of the other stuff is fine. But eating, for some reason is the hardest thing. Maybe because it’s the most tangible, the most sensual feeling I have in my life right now? Has anyone else experienced this?
YUP! After the worst break up of my life I went almost 2 weeks without eating. I went down to 97lbs! It was really scary and intense because I had no control over it. I wanted to eat, hell i love to eat, but I could not swallow more than a bite or two. There is somthing about the anxiety after a breakup that is so heightened, you just can’t seem to do anything you need to do. Everytime I tried to eat, I immediately felt nauseous because of how overwhelmed I was by everything. But it does fade away and you do get better. Still, it’s amazing what grief can do to you physically.
